I'm starting...slowly but surely to get this whole blog thing. As lame as this sounds..I kinda remember it from my past myspace days. I used to be obsessed with all the templates and HTML shtuff. I have a really hard time sitting at my computer for hours and feel like i'm being productive, but I'm going to try and get this thing to look halfway decent.
Short post but p.s. I really like that new pinterest thing. I shouldn't have ever asked what it was :)
Until next time..
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Together is all we need
I've come to realize that the fall always brings the same feeling deep in your belly. Always brings back those memories of being a kid when everything was perfect. It has the same smell each and every year, no matter where you are, and who your with.
It's so strange how the cool, clarifying breeze can make you feel so differently about each day. I've also come to realize in the past 3 days that life is a constant shaky, wooden roller coaster. The pinacle of the coaster right before the first big drop is the clarifying, high of life. The part that goes through the tunnel where you can't see your hand in front of your face is the low, dark part of life. Typical analogy, I think. but its ohh so good, and ohh so true.
In the past 3 days i've gotten a perfect insite of my life. Talking to people, listening to people, and realizing the person I am is probably not the best me. I've been here in Indiana for 7 months, 1 week today. And even though that doesn't seem like a long time, it's felt like the longest 7 months of my life. I've also realized that I kinda feel like a failure. I have been so negative and reveled in it, I havent had the time to enjoy it. I'm 24, in a completely different part of the country, and I've thrown this amazing opportunity out the window. I have no clue how long I'm going to be here, but I've decided in my heart of hearts that I'm going to enjoy this place, for all that it's worth, until it's over. I've been given this amazing opportunity to figure out who Lauren is, and I just can't waste it any longer.
With all that said, I apologize profusely to everyone that has come in contact with me in the past 8 months. I'm sorry for my horribly negative attitude about life. I'm sorry about my complaints, my sorrows and my dispairs. It's hard to move away from everything, but it's life, and you have to learn to deal with it each and every day. I've learned in the past 3 days that no matter what life throws at you, at least it's throwing something at you. Because all in all, things could be much worse.
"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity." — Gilda Radner
It's so strange how the cool, clarifying breeze can make you feel so differently about each day. I've also come to realize in the past 3 days that life is a constant shaky, wooden roller coaster. The pinacle of the coaster right before the first big drop is the clarifying, high of life. The part that goes through the tunnel where you can't see your hand in front of your face is the low, dark part of life. Typical analogy, I think. but its ohh so good, and ohh so true.
In the past 3 days i've gotten a perfect insite of my life. Talking to people, listening to people, and realizing the person I am is probably not the best me. I've been here in Indiana for 7 months, 1 week today. And even though that doesn't seem like a long time, it's felt like the longest 7 months of my life. I've also realized that I kinda feel like a failure. I have been so negative and reveled in it, I havent had the time to enjoy it. I'm 24, in a completely different part of the country, and I've thrown this amazing opportunity out the window. I have no clue how long I'm going to be here, but I've decided in my heart of hearts that I'm going to enjoy this place, for all that it's worth, until it's over. I've been given this amazing opportunity to figure out who Lauren is, and I just can't waste it any longer.
With all that said, I apologize profusely to everyone that has come in contact with me in the past 8 months. I'm sorry for my horribly negative attitude about life. I'm sorry about my complaints, my sorrows and my dispairs. It's hard to move away from everything, but it's life, and you have to learn to deal with it each and every day. I've learned in the past 3 days that no matter what life throws at you, at least it's throwing something at you. Because all in all, things could be much worse.
"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity." — Gilda Radner
Saturday, September 3, 2011
"Change and growth take place when a person has risked himself and dares to become involved with experimenting with his own life"
I'm obviously on this writing tandem right now..I guess that's what happens when you go 6 months without it. I'm at work right now and it's really peaceful (Every nurse knows to never say the "Q" word, it brings bad Karma).
I feel like eating a chicken sandwich with bacon, cheese, and french fries tonight. I always tell myself I'm not going to buy food in the hospital cafeteria, but it's so hard not to. Plus, i'm usually too lazy to get up 15 minutes early to make myself dinner before I leave the house. Sometimes I wonder how I can get through a 13 hour shift if I'm too lazy to get out of bed.
I'm totally in the rambling mood...we're supposed to get bad storms here tomorrow..it was 104 today, and Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday it's going to be in the 70s with a low of 50 something. I'm really hoping fall is on the way. As much as I like laying out by the pool, i'm ready for the snow and cozy clothes. I really enjoy Indiana more when there is snow on the ground and I get to wear jackets and boots. Maybe because it's something different..something I'm not used to.
I just wanted to add in here a little tribute to my best friend Hillary. I am so very proud of you very getting your dream job. I knew all long you would be a pediatric nurse. Your kind personality is one that will be perfect for that. I know this past year has been one of the hardest ever, but everything seems to pay off. You're moving on to bigger and better things and you're going to rock it. I can't wait to be back in the same state as you so we can hangout like old days. I miss it! Love you so much :)
That is all, I guess I should get off of here and do something a little more productive!
I feel like eating a chicken sandwich with bacon, cheese, and french fries tonight. I always tell myself I'm not going to buy food in the hospital cafeteria, but it's so hard not to. Plus, i'm usually too lazy to get up 15 minutes early to make myself dinner before I leave the house. Sometimes I wonder how I can get through a 13 hour shift if I'm too lazy to get out of bed.
I'm totally in the rambling mood...we're supposed to get bad storms here tomorrow..it was 104 today, and Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday it's going to be in the 70s with a low of 50 something. I'm really hoping fall is on the way. As much as I like laying out by the pool, i'm ready for the snow and cozy clothes. I really enjoy Indiana more when there is snow on the ground and I get to wear jackets and boots. Maybe because it's something different..something I'm not used to.
I just wanted to add in here a little tribute to my best friend Hillary. I am so very proud of you very getting your dream job. I knew all long you would be a pediatric nurse. Your kind personality is one that will be perfect for that. I know this past year has been one of the hardest ever, but everything seems to pay off. You're moving on to bigger and better things and you're going to rock it. I can't wait to be back in the same state as you so we can hangout like old days. I miss it! Love you so much :)
That is all, I guess I should get off of here and do something a little more productive!
Friday, September 2, 2011
(verb) clar·i·fy
1. to make (an idea, statement, etc.) clear or intelligible; to free from ambiguity.
2.
to remove solid matter from (a liquid); to make into a clear or pellucid liquid.
3.
to free (the mind, intelligence, etc.) from confusion; revive: The short nap clarified his thoughts.
I think there might have been a little misunderstanding with my last update...I'm not 100% leaving Indiana...I've toyed with the Idea of leaving..but it won't be until next year...meaning 2012. I have this apartment for a year, and don't plan on throwing money away to break a lease. So...If anyone was confused..here is your (noun) clari·fi·cation.
2.
to remove solid matter from (a liquid); to make into a clear or pellucid liquid.
3.
to free (the mind, intelligence, etc.) from confusion; revive: The short nap clarified his thoughts.
I think there might have been a little misunderstanding with my last update...I'm not 100% leaving Indiana...I've toyed with the Idea of leaving..but it won't be until next year...meaning 2012. I have this apartment for a year, and don't plan on throwing money away to break a lease. So...If anyone was confused..here is your (noun) clari·fi·cation.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
"Life can only be understood backward, but it must be lived forward" ~Soren Kierkegaard
So it hasn't been 7 months..but March is a long way away....like I promised...I'm going to take the time to update everyone on life in Podunk Indiana...
I still can't believe it's been a year since I got my nursing license..and 8 months since I moved to Indiana! To say the least...it's gone by very quickly. I've really learned a lot being at St. Mary's. I have countless stories of crazy things that i've seen..amazing things that i've learned, and sadness and defeat. Of course I won't relay all my nursing adventures on a public blog, but I can say that it's been an e.x.p.e.r.i.e.n.c.e.
I have decided that I really don't like night shift. I know i've said time and time again that I actually like it, and it's easier..it has taken my social life and flushed it down the toilet! I have me some nice people here that if I move, I would truly miss. I've recently started going to a local non-denomination church and joined an all girls small-group. We start our meetings next Wednesday and i'm really excited to expand my faith and meet some nice girl friends.
As much as I hate change, i've started applying back in the Houston area. I've decided that i'm not one to enjoy moving 1000 miles away from everything and everyone I know. I've applied to Texas Children's, and Memorial Hermann downtown in the medical center. I actually heard from a unit kind of like mine here in Evansville and they want to talk to me further. I'll keep my fingers crossed :) I also might apply to a pediatric hospital in Virginia Beach, Virginia. My cousin Lindsey lives there and it's right by the beach! I'm still in the Navy Nurse Corps running..but each and every day i'm starting to think that the Navy life isn't for me anymore. As hard as it is...I don't have the heart to tell my recruiter I'm falling away from the Idea. I've come to realize with nursing, and this job that no one is getting younger, including my parents. I've been away since I was 18 years old. I just feel like it's time to move back closer to them and enjoy their 'younger' years when I can. Some might think that sounds silly, but I think it's really important to be there for them when they have been there for me for the past 24 years. Plus, I love Houston...and I can't stand living in a small city anymore.
Evansville is a very 'family' oriented place. Everyone here is either married, married with kids...single but dating and in a serious relationship, or a douche bag. I've decided that a single, 24 year old girl in a place like this goes unnoticed. I've tried everything possible to meet other single people...it's a complete waste of time! I've gone to church...ive gone to the bars..I've gone to the grocery store by myself..I go to dinner by myself..I go to the movies by myself..and I'm still single Lauren. HENCE why I wanna move away haha.
I think the thing I will miss the most about Indiana is living close to my sister and my nephews...It really has been a blessing having them so close. For as long as I remember it was always a drive to see them..now it's a drive down the road and i've grown so close to them. I really hope they can move close too..like to Dallas or Houston again. If the whole entire family was close again, life would be PERFECT...
I hope that was an okay update for everyone...I promise I'll start writing in this thing more. My cousin is going to help me make this more appealing to the eyes. I've decided I'm not as creative as I thought I was. Or maybe it's because I suck at anything with computers. Either way..She's going to make it spiffy :)
Until next time...
I still can't believe it's been a year since I got my nursing license..and 8 months since I moved to Indiana! To say the least...it's gone by very quickly. I've really learned a lot being at St. Mary's. I have countless stories of crazy things that i've seen..amazing things that i've learned, and sadness and defeat. Of course I won't relay all my nursing adventures on a public blog, but I can say that it's been an e.x.p.e.r.i.e.n.c.e.
I have decided that I really don't like night shift. I know i've said time and time again that I actually like it, and it's easier..it has taken my social life and flushed it down the toilet! I have me some nice people here that if I move, I would truly miss. I've recently started going to a local non-denomination church and joined an all girls small-group. We start our meetings next Wednesday and i'm really excited to expand my faith and meet some nice girl friends.
As much as I hate change, i've started applying back in the Houston area. I've decided that i'm not one to enjoy moving 1000 miles away from everything and everyone I know. I've applied to Texas Children's, and Memorial Hermann downtown in the medical center. I actually heard from a unit kind of like mine here in Evansville and they want to talk to me further. I'll keep my fingers crossed :) I also might apply to a pediatric hospital in Virginia Beach, Virginia. My cousin Lindsey lives there and it's right by the beach! I'm still in the Navy Nurse Corps running..but each and every day i'm starting to think that the Navy life isn't for me anymore. As hard as it is...I don't have the heart to tell my recruiter I'm falling away from the Idea. I've come to realize with nursing, and this job that no one is getting younger, including my parents. I've been away since I was 18 years old. I just feel like it's time to move back closer to them and enjoy their 'younger' years when I can. Some might think that sounds silly, but I think it's really important to be there for them when they have been there for me for the past 24 years. Plus, I love Houston...and I can't stand living in a small city anymore.
Evansville is a very 'family' oriented place. Everyone here is either married, married with kids...single but dating and in a serious relationship, or a douche bag. I've decided that a single, 24 year old girl in a place like this goes unnoticed. I've tried everything possible to meet other single people...it's a complete waste of time! I've gone to church...ive gone to the bars..I've gone to the grocery store by myself..I go to dinner by myself..I go to the movies by myself..and I'm still single Lauren. HENCE why I wanna move away haha.
I think the thing I will miss the most about Indiana is living close to my sister and my nephews...It really has been a blessing having them so close. For as long as I remember it was always a drive to see them..now it's a drive down the road and i've grown so close to them. I really hope they can move close too..like to Dallas or Houston again. If the whole entire family was close again, life would be PERFECT...
I hope that was an okay update for everyone...I promise I'll start writing in this thing more. My cousin is going to help me make this more appealing to the eyes. I've decided I'm not as creative as I thought I was. Or maybe it's because I suck at anything with computers. Either way..She's going to make it spiffy :)
Until next time...
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